Why are you seeing this on Thursday instead of Wednesday? It’s a new publishing schedule! I discuss the impetus of this change in today’s essay, Grappling with Growth.
What better way to celebrate the importance of community and collaboration and eschew competition by shining my spotlight on fellow feminist life coach Mariah MacCarthy? In this episode, we chat about a feminist approach to life coaching and what that means for each of us. Mariah teaches me a new word–kyriarchy–which basically refers to all the hegemonic bullshit that upholds systems of oppression. Then we dive headfirst into their queer and non-binary identity, the use of “they/them” pronouns, and we finally end up with their unusual path to motherhood. Mariah is a birthmom to a five year old and bravely tells their story about accidental pregnancy, the financial reasons for adoption, and queering motherhood.
Mariah is a badass and I think you’re going to love this episode.
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Grappling with Growth
As you may have noticed, today’s podcast episode is a day later than usual. I realized this week that I’d fallen into a rhythm that hasn’t felt good. The beginnings of my weeks always felt rushed and hectic and I often worked late on Tuesdays to get each episode up. This week it dawned on me — I’m allowed to change my mind.
One of my goals with the podcast was consistency. I needed to prove to myself that I could produce something each week and begin to shed the story I tell myself that I can be flaky. This is a false and limiting belief. Instead, I’ve proven that consistency is my strong suit. After 39 episodes, I’ve only missed one week, and that was because I literally lost my voice.
At the same time, I felt trapped by the schedule I’d set for myself. I was afraid to admit that it wasn’t working for me. But what was I afraid of?
Growing up, I learned to value being true to my word, even as I evolved and changed. I was expected to know who I was in this world very early and any deviation from that elicited subtle punishment. My identity felt fixed and the boundaries of it constantly policed. Unsurprisingly, I’ve internalized this. I agonize over changing my mind, even though I rationally understand that it’s a natural part of personal growth. Some truths aren’t meant to last forever. And some truths will only hold you back.
All this is to say, if something doesn’t feel right, not only is it okay to ask why, it’s essential to your growth. My grappling with changing the release day of my podcast is insignificant in the grand scheme of things but it actually speaks to my desire to work more efficiently and find balance in the work I do. This decision honors the natural rhythm of my life instead of trying to force a rhythm that I’ve just grown out of.
So thank you for witnessing this growth and for silently reminding me that it’s good to change my mind once in awhile.